I was off work for the last week and a day. I can truly say there were only a few that I missed by not being at work. I used to be able to say that I missed all I worked with, that a vacation was only that, a break, now it's not long enough away...... Now as the years have gone past,it's not long enough, and truly not enough I want to return back too. I still love what I do, I still pray for my patients well being. I still hope for the best. I still know that my case managers, social workers, RN's, and techs do all that they can to make sure our patients get the best care possible. I just know that sometimes I feel alone in what I do, that's all. My surgeons are learning and doing all that they can do. After all they will go on to do better and bigger things. They will earn more than I can ever imagine, and they deserve it. However they do go on without us little folks, and those of us left behind, pick up the pieces of a broken system, which we call medical. We hope that what we do matters. We work long hours, we deal with abuse, neglect, and pain, but we do it because we want too. Because we went in to this field for the good of it, not for the glory or the monetary hand out, no, we wanted to make a difference in the lives of those around us, we wanted to give back, to serve..... but we are tired.